Monday, July 13, 2009

i cried. because i didn't play my solo well. of cause i didn't cry in front of my friends. i don't like to show my tears in front of many people and let them to comfort me. i really don't like that. so after the practice, i just kept my tears inside. i felt more despair after i heard xxx said that "eelin, just now your solo really...." i know what's thinking in her mind, she's thinking that she would play better than me. maybe she really can play very well. but i don't want to lose to her. she's my best friend, but sometimes she's a opponent for me, a good opponent. after that, i walked back faster and left her behind without saying a goodbye to her. i don't want to let her see my face and i don't want to see her face too. i scared i would cry. when i back home, i quickly hid into the toilet. then i burst out crying. i was only vented my feeling by crying. and i am not going to give up. please forgive me and i'll prove that i can do it!