Shades of My Monotonous Life

2012-01-26T00:32:00.000-08:00

2012-01-11T07:18:00.000-08:00

终于可以骄傲的说

我好起来了

等了这一天好久好久

终于成功把你在我心里的位置

调回原有的位置

但...

到最后才发现

爱过了你以后

就没那么地爱别人了

原来

2011-12-02T21:21:00.000-08:00

原来这世界还有很多懂我的人

原来也有人和我用一样的方式爱着某人

原来只当好朋友也可以很幸福

原来我并不孤单

此刻我搞清楚了

原来我不是不爱你了

只是换了个方式爱你而已

请允许我用这样的方式爱你

该放手的时候我会放手的

祝你幸福快乐。

我的手机背景 :)

这样多好

2011-11-30T22:08:00.000-08:00

一个月原来可以过得那么快，我就这样的傻傻地过了这一个月。不过，现在的我明白了自己想要的是什么。潇洒的当个局外人，何乐而不为呢？能够这样和你说话，是我一直以来的小希望。好喜欢现在的我们，这样多好。

再见了 11 月，我要重新做人了。

2011-11-25T04:15:00.000-08:00

写给7个月前的我：

怎么能就因为习惯了，然后一个头栽了进去呢？

写给6个月前的我：

我好讨厌你哦。怎么那么容易喜欢上了别人了？

写给4个月前的我：

被人被伤得还不轻吧。放心吧，一个月后你会好起来的。

写给3个月前的我：

不要傻了，他和她是一对的。

写给1个月前的我：

你伪装得好累哦。哭了过后，是时候放弃了。

写给1个月后的我：

我就知道你做到的。你很棒！:)

懂我的人就会懂，谢谢。

懂我的人就会懂

2011-11-24T02:36:00.000-08:00

好多人都在问我，到底放弃了吗，我笑着说：“到了这个时候，放弃与不放弃已经不会改变任何事实了。” 一直以来，我很勇敢的微笑着听她说着你的故事。我发觉，爱情里最糟糕的事不是你爱的人不爱你，而是你和你的好朋友同时爱上了同一个人。爱情没有分先后，没有等值交换，没有对与错，没有理智，没心没肺。

我拼命告诉自己，我真的不会介意。这我做到了，因为我根本没资格介意。一直选择保持沉默，却一眼看穿你的伪装。既然你不说，那我就选择不问。我知道，会有一天，你会主动的告诉我一切。我会原谅你对我们的隐瞒。

相信我，我已经在慢慢地痊愈中。我要继续当别人口中所说的那花心的双子。

懂我的人就会懂，谢谢 :)

2011-11-20T07:18:00.000-08:00

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最痛苦的莫过于徘徊在放与不放之间的那一段。真正下决心放弃了，反而，会有一种释然的感觉。从此，痛和爱都深深埋进心里。人生就是这样，难免有痛，难免有伤，无论我是否曾经抓住，那些东西都已离我而去，有些事不能回首，有些回忆不能梳理，有些人只能永远埋藏。

到底现在的你在我心里是什么样子的，我看连我自己也不清.

2011-11-14T06:40:00.000-08:00

《那些年，我一起追的女孩》观后感：

机会有时候只有一次，错过了就不能再回头。

人生本來就有很多事是徒勞無功的，没有说付出了就一定会有收获。

爱情最美好的时候就是暧昧的时候，殊不知，暧昧不是每个人都玩得起的。

越是喜欢一个人，就越没办法在一起。

真正的爱一个人，是能做到衷心的祝福他和他爱的人。

喜欢就要说出口，不要默默地等对方发现。

每个女孩心中都有一个柯景腾，明明很喜欢他，明明又知道他喜欢自己，却又装作不在乎。

人生里难免会留下遗憾，不过遗憾的是明知道会留下遗憾，却总是不尽力。

人有一天总会累的，即使有多爱，也再也无力去追了。

一生中最美好的回忆通常都在中学时期。

爱情可以很美丽 :)

笨蛋

2011-11-13T06:10:00.000-08:00

双子这一辈子都在忙忙碌碌的寻找着另一半。这被人们归类为花心，只是他们不知道当双子找到真正的另一半，心就会安定下来了。这回我想我似乎找到原因了，是因为这次花心的双子终于肯安定下来了吗？天啊，这回我怎么那么软弱？明知道那不可能会是我的，偏偏执着得恐怖，压抑得好辛苦，然后假装得好累。有没有一天我不需要再伪装，不用带着开心的面具示人? 到底这天几时才回来？有时候真的撑得好累。每次以为自己已经彻底地放下了，心却又泛起一阵涟漪。对不起，因为一直在为难自己，一直在伪装。请相信我，我会好起来的。

没心没肺的我

2011-11-01T05:24:00.000-07:00

压抑了很久的情绪跟随着眼泪一起崩溃过后，我终于找回了那消失已久的笑容。我知道我一直以来傻傻的坚持，最后什么也没得到。一次次的希望过后跟随着失望，然后又是希望，然后又再失望。一直以来都在很努力的寻找一个可以让自己彻彻底底放下的理由，今天我应该找到了。很感动地说，我真的爱上了现在的自己。我好爱好爱好爱自己的宽容和豁达。过去一直在当双面人，强颜欢笑的过日子。经历过了那么多，我很庆幸我还看得开，那两次的眼泪也算流得有点价值。我曾经告诉过自己，不能为一个人流泪超过三次。三次以后，无论如何，一定要放手了。这回我很庆幸且荣幸地说，就只有两次，也不会再有第三次。从此以后，和你说话不用再打草稿，和她们说话也可以彻底的笑，笑容里不会再隐藏忧郁。今天我已经把自己调整到不爱你的状态，即使后果是会成为一个没心没肺的人。曾经你是那个可以在一秒以内，把我从地狱带到天堂，却又可以在下一秒，把我从天堂推下地狱。为了你，可以崩溃的嚎啕大哭，颓废得不成人形。我相信今天以后，我的心跳会变得好平静，天空会变得好宽阔。再见了，我爱得死去活来却又不爱我的人。

Dying

2011-10-31T06:57:00.001-07:00

I have a thousand of words in my heart and I can't speak it out loud. It hurts me so deep, but I am just good in pretending it is not. After today, finally I realized the hardest thing to do in this world is to smile and act like nothing is wrong when the words from the people are actually hurt. So what can I do is only remain speechless. but it doesn't mean I don't care. In fact, it means it hurt much more. Hiding a crying face in front of the people is actually a tough task. People keep repeating the same thing over and over again, and my heart cries over and over again. Gosh can anybody pull me out form this?

心 ∙ 跳

2011-10-23T05:09:00.000-07:00

我是一个爱保持沉默的孩子，有时候沉默真好，可以假装什么都不知道，只有自己知道心底的寂寞。这些寂寞，某人永远都不会明白。会有人知道我想要的不是同情，而是真心吗？真心又有几个人会有？把自己的感觉压抑久了，我开始迷失了自己，那最初的感觉我早已忘了。听说双子有着极强的压抑心理.可以将任何情绪掩盖在外表之下，并且你要相信，我们有这个本事一忍到底。所以我習慣了一個人的生活，變得沉默、變得冷落、沒了想理、不想說、不想看、不想知道、不想懂得，而且也不想爱了。慢慢地发现，原来爱一个人是最劳累的事，因为没有回应的等待是很辛苦的。那些痛苦和疲惫有谁不懂？只是人有时可以欺骗世界，但人永远不能欺骗自己，心依然还为着某人而跳。我时时刻刻都在提醒着自己，今天我所做的事，我以后绝对不会后悔，因为爱过了才会懂得。如果哪天我放弃了你, 并不是我不喜欢你，而是你不懂得珍惜。我知道，终有一天，我的世界不再有你。我的心不会再被你的一个眼神、一个笑容、一句话牵引着。我要学会让自己的心安静下来，否着我永远活不出自己。我不需要告诉全世界，我被爱伤得有多可怜，即使遍体鳞伤，后果我一个人承担。懂我的人也应该会懂。只是有时会愚蠢的希望那个懂我的人会是你。你知不知道，我是耗尽了所有的勇气和力气才敢走近你和她，还要假装若无其事的微笑，祝福你们。我可以假装看不见，但却不能假装不知道。时间久了，我已开始厌倦了，不知不觉有股想逃离的冲动，也许不是厌倦了，而是给不了自己坚持下去的勇气，心也负荷不了那么多的伤害。如果可以，我选择安静的遗忘。我不想要、不需要、也没资格要你知道。到最后我只变成了你生命里的一个小角色，我会很庆幸我还看得开。想对某人说：“终有一天，我也可以再对你微笑。终有一天，我也可以再对你说你好。终有一天，无论谁，在哪里，再次提及你的消息，我都可以真的笑笑，心里没有一点涟漪。” 那一天离今天不远了...

剩下的记忆

2011-10-18T06:01:00.000-07:00

人，可以变得很快，变得很恐怖。一年前，我们一起笑着哭，哭着笑的日子，你都还记得吗？以前你对我说过，我就像你的天使一样，每次在你需要的时候及时的出现。如今，即使我能及时出现，也许你已不需要我了。有一次，我倒在你怀里，放肆地哭了。不知以后我们还会不会一起哭？也不知从何时开始，我们的对话变得如此有礼貌了。我们曾经是很好很好的朋友，或许也只是曾经。

HOOHOOO

2011-10-15T06:16:00.001-07:00

It has been almost two months since my last update. Well, I've been gone through all these emo days and now it is the turn for the happy days to take over. But too bad, I have been feeling sick during my exam week. Vomited a few times in a day. This happened in my monthly test too. Exam kills! No. Exam in this school kills! Noooo.. STPM kills! Anyway I swear I will never let myself fall sick during exam days again! Most probably I would failed all the subjects this time, I am praying hard for my maths. Whatever. Just let it be. It's just a test. Who cares? *my mum cares* Lol.

Holidays are coming. I am gonna study hard in this holiday in an enjoyable way. Is this possible? Let's see. HAHA.

STUPIDITY

2011-07-28T02:16:00.000-07:00

I've never hurt like this before. Not going to blame anyone for that. 'Cause I am ashamed of my stupidity.

2011-07-24T03:48:00.000-07:00

真正的爱情，不是一见钟情，而是日久生情；真正的缘份，不是上天的安排，而是你的主动；真正的自卑，不是你不优秀，而是你把她想得太优秀；真正的关心，不是你认为好的就要求她改变，而是她的改变你是第一个发现的；真正的矛盾，不是她不理解你，而是你不会宽容她。

不要因为寂寞爱错人，更不要因为爱错人而寂寞一生，尝试信任才能得到幸福。缘分是本书，翻的不经意会错过，读得太认真会泪流。女人会记得让她笑的男人，男人会记得让他哭的女人，可是女人总是留在让她哭的男人身边，男人却留在让他笑的女人身边。

世界上最动人的情话，不是“我爱你”，而是在我需要的时候，你说“ I’ll be there ” 。

女人好比梨，外甜内酸。吃梨的人不知道梨的心是酸的，因为吃到最后就把心扔了，所以男人从来不懂女人的心。男人就好比洋葱，想要看到男人的心就需要一层一层去剥！但在剥的过程中你会不断流泪，剥到最后你才知道洋葱是没心的。

有些人一直没机会见，等有机会见了，却又犹豫了。有些事一直没机会做，等有机会了，却不想再做了。有些话埋藏在心中好久，没机会说，等有机会说的时候，却说不出口了。有些爱一直没机会爱，等有机会了，已经不爱了。有些话有很多机会说的，却想着以后再说，要说的时候，却已经没机会了。

人最软弱的地方，是舍不得。

舍不得一段不再精采的感情，舍不得一份虚荣，舍不得掌声。我们永远以为最好的日子是会很长很长的，不必那么快离开。就在我们心软和缺乏勇气的时候，最好的日子毫不留情地逝去了。

往往喜欢一个人的时候，不需要任何理由；不喜欢一个人的时候，却拥有很多借口

如果一个男人真的爱你,他不会冷落你超过三天,因为想念你的日子很难过；如果一个男人真的爱你,他会觉得你是最好的,不会将你和其他女人比较,即便你并不优秀；如果一个男人真的爱你,他会时时想着让你开心,不会让你流泪；如果一个男人真的爱你,他会默默地付出一切,但很少让你知道他所做的牺牲。

遇到你真正爱的人时：要努力争取和他相伴一生的机会，因为当他离去时，一切都来不及了；遇到可相信的朋友时：要好好和他相处下去，因为在人的一生中，可遇到知己真的不易；遇到曾经爱过的人时：记得微笑，因为他是让你更懂爱的人。

24/7/11 - 多谢你的绝情，让我也学会狠心

Easy come easy go

2011-07-23T03:15:00.000-07:00

I wanna go back to the 3rd of July, so that I can start this all over again. Kinda regret for being so naive and stubborn all the time. I know I was naive enough to believe of what you said. Really disappointed when somebody told me what have you did. I was stubborn enough for holding on too long and not telling you the truth. You did not know the reason why am I did that to you. A sentence couldn't explain all. I wish you would know but I never tell. Damn myself! Why am I so stubborn?! but after all, I am still stupid enough to hope that the things you said to me is real. I'm just a stubborn kind of girl. If you don't like me, I'm okay with that, just don't pretend that you do. Because people used to step on my heart and break it into pieces. But..... I still like you after all.

23/7/11 - The hardest part about broken heart is when every single pieces of it is still loving the breaker.

2011-06-29T02:47:00.000-07:00

I was under stress for already a few days. I was in a BIG dilemma. All things get ruined. In these few days, tears was my best companion.

weird

2011-06-17T03:56:00.001-07:00

I do not understand why everything seems weird when I stepped into this school. Everything seems to be going against me. Somehow friends changed a lot or I wonder am I the one who changed a lot? okay ignore that. Friends left one by one. Absence make heart grows fonder? That's nonsense. It's can't deny that we get further and further. How I wish we could go back to the pass. Laughing and crying like mad together. However, even though we've changed and we're all finding our own place in the world, we all know that when the tears fall or the smile spreads across our face, we'll come to each other because no matter where this crazy world takes us, nothing will ever change so much to the point where we're not all still friends. Thank you to the one, you-know-who-you-are.

Well, my birthday sucks, except for the kung fu panda and the awesome cheesy chips and the girl.

2011-06-05T22:48:00.000-07:00

Things happened too suddenly. How am I going to accept that? Well at least I should be glad that the sky is still not falling. What would happen if I leave as well? Friends are leaving me one by one. I wonder who's the next.

speechless

2011-05-27T00:47:00.000-07:00

Finally it's now the holidays after three exhaustive weeks! I don't really like this school but I have to get used to it soon. I got into a still-okay class and met with some still-okay classmates and the still-okay teachers. I am still having a still-okay school life now. I guess it wouldn't be okay anymore after these two weeks of holidays. So I am gonna enjoy to the max in these two weeks! My holiday is gonna be awesome! Hangouts, gatherings, trips anddd my birthdayyyy FuYOH :D *ignore the tuitions and club meetings*

By the way, today is the teacher's day celebration. oh my. I had never seen a lousy celebration like this before. It increased my dissatisfies towards this school lol.

In a conclusion, I MISS AMC!

2011-05-09T05:18:00.000-07:00

I'm proud of my heart. It's been played, burned and broken. But it still works.

玻璃下的忧郁

2011-05-04T08:09:00.000-07:00

隔了一片玻璃看世界，原来很美

同样的世界，不同的空间

无法触碰，无法感受

我们就如同隔了一层玻璃

我心底里的声音

你听得到吗？

不一样的空气

传达不到

我想说的话

敲一敲那厚厚的玻璃

嗨我在这儿

你有看到吗？

我就像一只趴在玻璃上的苍蝇

前途一片光明

而我却找不到出路

有哪个谁

愿意指引我？

也许我有颗玻璃心

易碎的心

那满地的碎片

谁来收拾？

我想你了

你会在哪里？

Aimless

2011-05-02T08:14:00.000-07:00

I feel so aimless in life.

pass-byer

2011-04-22T09:39:00.000-07:00

To the pass-byer. Thank you for coming into my life. Don't ever ask for my heart and then destroy it, it's the only one I have. Goodbye the pass-byer.

Goodbyes

2011-04-15T07:37:00.000-07:00

I feel like escaping from this town for a little while since everybody is leaving. Seriously wanna go back to the time when I was 17 which the goodbyes only meant until tomorrow. All I have is memories. "A goodbye isn't painful unless you're never going to say hello again", accidentally saw this quote from somewhere. But I feel a deep pain on my heart. I hate goodbyes 'cause I am not that strong.

Music

2011-04-01T06:05:00.000-07:00

Music helps me escape from the reality I live in.

cherish

2011-03-18T07:08:00.000-07:00

When your last day of school comes. Remember to cherish every moment, every detail, every hug, and even some tears. Because from that day on, everyone may never be the same.

I miss my school life suddenly and seriously.

The colourful blank year

2011-01-04T07:09:00.000-08:00

It's already a new year, a totally new and different year for me. Was busy studying and facing the exams last year, but now I just need to work work and work. Working isn't that fun like what I thought. Being exhausted all the time. I can't even feel my legs when I back from work. I hate working! I hope that I could be a student again, and it would be better if I were a primary student. I am damn missing my school life even the kinder-garden one. Life changes as I grew up. Things go more difficult too. I am not well prepared for my working life as well as college life. Primary school life is the most enjoyable one while the secondary school life is the most memorable one. I miss my society very much. It's the place which I had all the happiness, sadness and regrets. Those made me to be a better person. I won't forget all the memories in the society. It's the most wonderful one in my life. Besides that, I do miss my classmates too. I'm glad that we organized the class party successfully so that it could be the gathering before we go our own way. We're awesome! Last but not least, I miss my gang of friends. They are the awesome condiment in my life! Everything change as the time passed but our friendship would not. We are best friends forever.

The year 2010 isn't an awesome year for me but it's the year which I missed the most. There was a lot of things happened in that year. I had my last performance, my last practice, my last school day, my last school song and so on. Form 5 year was the awesomest among the five years. I seems gained a lot of things in this year, but i did lose something...friends, dreams and loves. I hope that I could have them in this great year. I won't lose them once again. Never and ever.

I'm always in hesitation when it comes to my future. Two road diverge in front of me. I am exactly like the persona in the poem 'The road not taken' lol. Should I choose the road which less people travelled by? hmm, the grassy road seems attractive. Whatever. The hesitation won't stop.

To be continued....

不完美的完美 ♥

2010-11-29T03:57:00.000-08:00

Thank God. Finally we have this after hoping for so long. Special thanks to bad Faith chan for uploading this :) It's not perfect, isn't awesome like what we expected. But we already tried our best. For us, it's a wonderful experience. A lot of wonderful scenes and melodies are in my mind now. Love amcco always ♥

手牵手 ♥

2010-11-17T02:41:00.001-08:00

我还记得第一次见面的时候
一张张陌生的脸庞
该怎么相处到最后
不知不觉我们渐渐都长大了
过程虽然有些辛苦
但至少刻骨铭心过

当世界突然变得寂寞
你是否会想起我
我会给你一个笑容
让你世界充满希望

我们手牵手别再躲在回忆的背后
挥挥手勇敢一步一步向前走
就算我们会被伤的很重
不要忘记朋友一直在左右

我们手牵手一起走过两年的尽头
挥挥手明天为自己的未来加油
就算未来的路不好走
不要忘记
还有我们这一群好友 ♥

Joe Hisaishi / Princess Mononoke Symphonic Suite

2010-10-18T02:09:00.000-07:00

I love this song very much.

Graduation Night

2010-09-24T21:54:00.000-07:00

Since the owner of this blog was too lazy, so she decided to write only for special things :)

Last night was the special graduation night of us. It's was a awesome and fabulous night, it's also the first time I attended such a big and great event with my classmates and whole F5 students. I even went to set my hair. laugh out loud. Luckily it looked nice, if not I would be regret for a few years lol. *make ups* *dress* *high heels*

ewww. I looked like a girl finally. But when i saw the other girls, i was like OMG. *sexy* *pretty* *gorgeous* *handsome* and some *OMG* one. LOL. There were so many cuties and "handsome guys". I was very impressed by the prettiness and handsomeness of amc girls lol. Beside that, all the performances were awesome, especially ours! We're silly dance queens. We didn't have those pro dance step, those korean pop songs, those super nice costumes, but we were creative enough! We were cool enough! and we're silly enough!! LOL. *claps for 5S8 and power rangers* Gonna post some photos here :) i was glad to see that all of us were singing the theme song hand in hand, shouting and clapping for our performance, taking photos together... It'll be another sweet memory.

The few days before this, actually i did feel a bit regret for joining the performance team. But the happiness we gained during the practices and rehearsals had changed my mind. I felt proud that I joined the performance. We dance together We laughed together We crazy together. Finally we got back the teamwork and happiness. I love them more.

I love 5S8 more after this.

p/s : I look much more prettier without makeups. I walk more confidently without high heels. High heels are the most dangerous weapon in this world! It kills!

我还记得

2010-09-04T04:57:00.000-07:00

不敢相信我要离开了，这个我已把它当成我另外一个家的地方。我很舍不得，也许我不能再拥有属于它的任何回忆，可是我曾经拥有过的回忆，绝对不会被忘掉，永远会待在我的心灵深处。

我还记得

我的第一首合奏曲

阿朗的故事

很开心今天可以

再次听到这首歌

真的很惊讶

你们可以这样的来演奏

谢谢你们

我还记得

节庆欢舞

我的第一场比赛

偶尔听到这首歌

我会哭泣

因为我感到遗憾

我没奏好

不过就因为这样

我不会再让我自己

留下遗憾

我还记得

童年的回忆

我的第一场演奏会的

其中一首歌

却又是我最后一场演奏会的

其中一首歌

第一次和最后一次

真的很不同

直到最后一次

我才真正懂得

童年的回忆

我还记得

苑芯，淑桦，凯琳，

佩文，佩仪，Joanne

一个个教导过我的学姐

谢谢你们

以前我曾经讨厌过你们的责备

对不起

请原谅我的不懂事

是你们让我变得更好

我还记得

我们的难忘的泼水节

我们的第一个金牌

真的很难忘

多么动听的一首歌

优美却要付出巨大代价的旋律

尤其是那１５小节

我都还记得

我还记得

阿美族舞曲

我们的第一首齐奏

只有我们６个人

好恐怖的的第一次

可是它是一个很美的回忆

也是从那时开始

就注定着那个叫陈芷嫣的人

要和我面对面５年

我还记得

欢腾的水乡

我们的唯一一次

能１０个人一起上台

一起比赛

对我来说

着１０个人的演出

是十全是美的

我还记得

Michelle, 翠芳，

还有我最爱的Rachel

谢谢你们

尤其是Rachel

一个能在离开后

还一直不断给予我教导，鼓励的人

在我伤心的时候安慰我

分享我的喜悦

我爱你 Rachel !

我还记得

慈母颂

那场很好笑的演奏会

虽然不怎样

可是我怀念

那些歌颂着母亲的歌

也是歌颂着我们的歌

我还记得

Whitney, 若怀, 韵琪, 惠漪, 晓倩,

敏颖, 佳齐, 楚瑶, 洁仪, 洁盈

一班和我们一起长大

却也带领着我们长大的学姐

最舍不得你们

因为我们一起经历过太多事了

谢谢你们的一切

谢谢若怀，因为她的一句

＂我从未对你失望过＂

让我重新振作

我知道我不能让她失望

谢谢

我还记得

那年我们在金马仑

我们一起分享了很多

让我领悟到了一些道理

最让我印象深刻的就是

你们把我弄哭的那些鬼故事

实在是太恐怖了!

我还记得

春风燕语

一场很棒的演奏会

一首首很棒的歌曲

欢乐的中国节

燕子

庆典

春风幻想曲

我都不会忘记

大家都练得很辛苦

得到这样的成果

真的很满足

好怀念...

我还记得

春风幻想曲

那首我们留着泪奏的歌曲

那不是一场比赛

那是学姐们的欢送会

７８个人同一条心

上到台上

指挥翻开空白的总谱

我们编写着每个音符

两个人的独奏

代表着在乐团里

没有人是寂寞的

进入着最后一段

慢慢的闭上眼睛

因为我们已融为一体了

我们奏出了内心的最深处

深呼吸再奏出最后一个音

过后光荣的走下台

放声的大哭

前所未有的大哭

我们真的不想离开那个舞台

我很怀念那场＂送别会＂

那面金牌

让我们感到前所未有的光荣

我们骄傲的呼喊着

兴奋的留着泪

闪耀的灯光照耀着我们的

最佳指挥 -- 夏苇妮

谢谢你

如果没有你

这一切不会发生

我还记得

乐响青春

我爱的红旗渠

我爱的太行印象

我爱的春天组曲

我爱的长城随想曲

我爱的吴旭东

我爱的高胡组

我爱的顺丽老师

我爱的每个营员

谢谢老师给我这个机会

我学到了很多很多

我认识了他们，她们，她，

还有他...

我还记得

茉莉花

她们走后

我们的第一个比赛

绮媚指挥的第一次

芷嫣哭了好多次的独奏

我们练了好久的８５小节

答应了要一起上台发乔的我们

结果却做不到

不过奇迹般的

我们得到了金

无论如何

又是一段值得回忆的经历

我还记得

我们一起演过大大小小的演出

大家一起练习

然后一起上台

其实是快乐的

谢谢大家

我还记得

冬随想

但却忘了被骂了多少次

也忘了骂人骂了多少次

我还记得

最爱的童年的回忆

也记得我们的三门峡畅想曲

虽然不好

但它对我来说

是有血有泪的

请原谅我的不足

也谢谢老师曾经相信过我

我也记得

那首很好听

却让我感到害怕的

刘三姐随想曲

还有冬

很遗憾的

我们未能奏到最好

演奏完后

眼泪有突然想跑出来的冲动

可是我告诉自己

在台上哭很丑

岂不是在告诉观众

你很懦弱很没用吗？

我一定要笑

即使笑到嘴巴烂掉

我也要笑

谢谢我亲爱的高胡组

其实你们很棒

我还记得

我们又一起上了金马仑

那个装得进１３个人的房间

那个像赌场的房间

我们一起玩盖棉胎

互相取笑

我们一起分享心事

为各自的遭遇而流泪

还有我们一起打太极

我们一起玩游戏

那让人崩溃的口红

我们一起吃巧克力草莓

那独一无二的巧克力草莓

有着你们的甜

我还记得

春蕾

冬又被搬上了舞台

充满了遗憾的走下了舞台

从未有过的失落

每张好无奈且痛哭流涕的脸

庆辛在这个时候

我们都得到了无数的拥抱

互相安慰着

一起沉受着失败

却又在这个时候

看见了学妹们创造了奇迹

成了一个很大的对比

其实我们都感到欣慰

看着台上的她们

听着她们奏出的第一个音

泪水不知觉的留了出来

那个音有多么的感动

多么的动听

她们就在一夜之间长大了

不再像个小孩

而我们就像一位妈妈

看着自己的孩子

在台上大放异彩

谢谢我亲爱的学妹

你们真的很棒！

我还记得

我们决定了要把我们最好的

留给中国的那场演出

我们浩浩荡荡的出发了

带着一个梦想

也可以说是一个心愿

到了那里

梦想和心愿被暂时搁在一旁

我们尽情的玩着

还记得

让我们走到脚断的世博

幸好我们不是用脚来奏

我们在那里有过的回忆

可以写成好几页

其中最印象深刻的是

那满桌的菜

那个＂英国馆＂

那几百张的照片

高胡组四个人一起睡的每个夜晚

当然还有我们的演出

就算再不完美

它也是完美的

还有最壮观的赛马

都不会被忘掉

我还记得

我们的最后一次合奏

最后一次

我们才找到白马王子

最后一次

老师把指挥台留给了绮媚

奏出了我们最感动的冬

最后一次

从春风就压抑着的泪水

终于留了出来

从龙腾到冬

都有着一段段的回忆

在这么糟的音乐里

我们却有着我们自己的故事

我们的回忆

我们的感动

和你们合奏的日子会是我最怀念的

那天的泪水和你们说的话

我都不会忘记

我们会把旋律带回家

永远的怀念

我爱你们

谢谢你们

我还记得

今天的欢送会

是多么的感动

很喜欢那本小册子

我看到了你们的用心

看着你们的演出

我的嘴灿烂的笑着

心里头却

深深的感动着

谢谢你们

对，我们要走了

不过心却留下了

虽然不能再并肩作战

但愿心灵上的支持

永与你们同在

我还记得

在这些年来与我

并肩作战的战友们

这五年来曾经有人

在半途下了车

我们38个人都不离不弃

继续勇往直前

这是所谓的缘份

我们都彼此珍惜着

这珍贵的友谊

因为我们的心

曾经被连结了起来

我还记得

我们十个人的故事

十个人一条心

也许很难

可是我们曾经有过

我永远都不会忘记你们

还有我们曾经一起经历过的事

我们之间的笑话

甚至我们有过的不愉快

我们就像一家人

争吵后

感情也不会变

我们是10全10美的

我还记得

高胡

我属于的地方

曾经有一刻

它是真正的属于我的

我记得我曾经讨厌过

因为我害怕因为我没自信

我很压抑也很无助

在这个时候

这里面的人都对我不离不弃

给予我最佳的信任

最大的鼓励和支持

我想说声谢谢

还有对不起

请原谅我曾经犯下的错

千万不要学

而我曾经做过的好

我希望你们能做得更好

谢谢你们曾经给过我

很多很美好的回忆

我都会收藏在心里

这里的每个人

我都不会忘掉

我的最佳拍挡 -- casey, 加加

我最傻的f4 -- 绮文, 翠仪

我最可爱的f3 -- 丽娜, 晓依, 秀雯

最常被我骂的f2 -- 盈萱, 沁儿, 俐华, 韦君

这些和我一起成长过

和我一手带大的小孩们

请你们记住这分情

因为它很珍贵

我还记得

13号高胡

和我一起走过了风风雨雨

倾听我好多好多的心事

用旋律安慰着我

对不起

我弄断了你的头

因为这样

我会更努力的去保护你

谢谢你陪我一起走过的日子

我还记得

圣母华乐团

我们已到达了目的地

是时候下车了

一路上那美丽的风景

深深地烙印在我心里

长途跋涉终于到达了

但却不舍得下车

问自己

为什么不能再走下去

我告诉自己

巴士走走停停

总会有人上车下车

我深信这巴士永远都是满座的

也会一直被扩大

经过的风景会越来越美

到达了目的地的人们

会开心和满足的下车

而现在的我已经缓缓的走下车

再回头望那一张张可爱

但却流着泪的脸

多么的依依不舍

其实想告诉你们

我们会在某个休息站

等待着你们

如果你们累了

就停在那个休息站

我们一定会在那里迎接你们

喝个茶，聊个天，给个鼓励

给巴士加加油

然后再送你们上车

继续你们的路程

而当你们又累了

我们又回在前面的休息站的你们

最后祝你们一路顺风

我爱圣母华乐团

new post

2010-08-26T20:43:00.000-07:00

i don't wanna talk about exam

but everyone looks more pretty during exam

don't know why lol

especially these three people >

瑾 ♥ 霓 ♥ 欣

click it to view.

it is extremely sweet lol.

exam

2010-08-20T05:55:00.000-07:00

the title of essay for my English test is "EXAMINATIONS".

writing examination in an examination is so cool.

laugh out loud.

the sejarah paper 1 killed me

i may not alive after the paper 2

i got hurt badly in those papers

except for chinese and maths

whooo

exam is so terrible

pissed off

2010-08-10T00:48:00.000-07:00

something bad happened to us. We are so damn unlucky. We all in a terrible mess because of one girl. I know I can't comment anything because I do not understand the situation well. but I was so wanted to tell her that please use her brain to think! don't do brainless thing! i know, both of them are wrong also. however, we are the one who feel guilty, sad, angry! we are innocent that we didn't even know what had happened! pissed off! our life had changed from this day and this moment...

i love 5S8 lol

2010-08-06T05:34:00.000-07:00

Yo. I love 5s8! I love my class!

2010-08-05T01:16:00.000-07:00

最近在Facebook看到很多很有意思的文字

喜欢可以是一种欣赏，就像浏览风景一样，你只需要牢牢记住那曾经在林间深处有过的茉莉馨香，但却不一定要千方百计、费尽心思将株原本应该开在溪涧幽谷中的茉莉移植到盆栽放在室内，然后终日与你相伴…亲爱的有些喜欢…你可以远远的欣赏…有些感情保持微笑…路过就好…
拿着一个茶杯，然后就往里面倒热水，一直倒到水溢出来。你烫到手的时候是马上松手了吗？这个世界上没有什么事是放不下的，痛了，你自然就会放下。
爱情不是办家家酒...好好爱他/她...别等到失去了才后悔莫及...
朋友之间不要太复杂…不要有太多东西…越复杂越难找到快乐… 就好像做人一样…不要把自己推得太高…什么事都要学会放下…这样才可以找到快乐, 做人那么注重细节，不觉得很烦吗?!
就算，眼前的这个人，千般好，万般好，处处是优点，他不爱你，这个缺点，你永远改变不了. 一个人最大的缺点，不是自私，野蛮，任性，而是偏执的爱着一个不爱自己的人。自找痛苦...
看着别人的故事，流着自己的眼泪。
勉强是没有幸福的, 可是幸福是要靠自己争取的 !
我喜欢现在的自己，我怀念过去的我们。
我喜欢把爱深深地藏在心里。
回得了过去，回不了当初。

其中最喜欢这句 "我喜欢现在的自己，我怀念过去的我们" 给它说中了~

nice melody

2010-08-02T05:07:00.000-07:00

I found a video, it's very nice. the every note of the melody touches my heart. an amazing melody with different style. it's just awesome ♥
this is the video's link

OH

2010-07-28T03:44:00.000-07:00

IT IS A WEIRD FEELING

KINDA WEIRD

AND WEIRD TO EXPLAIN ALSO

JUST WEIRD

HYPER WEIRD

2010-07-27T05:25:00.000-07:00

seriously in love with "the river flows in you"

just a simple and lovely song <3

especially for someone

2010-07-26T05:54:00.000-07:00

Is the two words really that important for you?

you can only see the radiance of it.

it is difficult to carry these two words.

you will never know how stressful and

how tired we are after carrying it.

it is not as beautiful as what you think.

do not worry i am not feeling disappointing

i just want you to understand all these.

the one who got the highest post in this society

is always the stressful and unhappy one

being a leader is not as easy as what you think

you should be glad that what are you having now

it is already the best for you

try to think about others that didn't get anything

should you be grateful about what you have now?

bored

2010-07-25T07:53:00.001-07:00

i was so bored

but actually

i have to do many things

all the reference books are waiting for me

but too sorry

i never touch it

i feel so boring

and doing nothing here

don't feel like studying

i hate myself

feelings?

2010-07-23T05:25:00.000-07:00

yesterday i viewed all my old posts
i found that it's really a big difference
between them with my recent posts
i mean the way i write it

Now I just want to express my feelings
don't really expecting others
will see it or understand it

someone just always tell us that diary
is not for recording
is for expressing
i love what she says
and the way she says it
oh that is my chinese teacher LOL

i just want to write my blog
with my own way
as i said
i am special in a special way
so i am different in a different way xD

regretless

2010-07-22T04:50:00.000-07:00

i shouldn't be regret for what i did
'cause that is my choice
i choose to give up all these
I'm ready for all the consequences
of course
i know i would be losing you
i would be missing you all the time
but what can i do besides giving up all these?

There You'll Be

2010-07-17T23:37:00.000-07:00

this song is for AMCCO ♥

When I think back on these times
And the dreams we left behind
I'll be glad 'cause I was blessed to get
To have you in my life
When I look back on these days
I'll look and see your face
You were right there for me

In my dreams
I'll always see you soar
Above the sky
In my heart
There always be a place
For you for all my life
I'll keep a part
Of you with me
And everywhere I am
There you'll be
And everywhere I am
There you'll be

Well you showed me how it feels
To feel the sky within my reach
And I always will remember all
The strength you gave to me
Your love made me make it through
Oh, I owe so much to you
You were right there for me

In my dreams
I'll always see you soar
Above the sky
In my heart
There always be a place
For you for all my life
I'll keep a part
Of you with me
And everywhere I am
There you'll be

'Cause I always saw in you
My light, my strength
And I want to thank you
Now for all the ways
You were right there for me (You were right there for me)
You were right there for me
For always

In my dreams
I'll always see you soar
Above the sky
In my heart
There always be a place
For you for all my life
I'll keep a part
Of you with me
And everywhere I am
There you'll be
And everywhere I am
There you'll be

放手

2010-07-16T23:13:00.000-07:00

今天是个很特别的日子
我要退休了
其实很开心
能看着小孩们成长
直到今天
她们才长大了
她们要带领整个团体了
她们是领导人了
突然感到很欣慰
不过还挺担心
那傻傻的孩子们
但我们是时候放手了
该走的还是要走
但我依然会爱着你们
想念你们
加油!

2010-07-15T07:20:00.000-07:00

i think you don't need me anymore
isn't it? =(
okay
sorry
it's my fault
'cause i can't help you anymore

i hate this feeling
which i get ignored by people

i don't care

2010-07-14T03:26:00.000-07:00

i am so tiring of being a
good friend
good daughter
good sister
good student
good senior
but who cares?
who knows?
if you think that I am just acting
okay just continue with that
i don't care anymore.

a new start

2010-07-13T04:54:00.000-07:00

it is the time to study now =)
i still have 5 weeks
i still have 35 days
i still have 840 days
i still have 20160 minutes
i still have 483840 seconds
so god bless me

what a day

2010-07-12T03:27:00.000-07:00

i thought today would be a great day
but something bad had happened
luckily it ended up with happiness
everyone was so happy except me
i am so frustrating about that
i didn't do my job well
as well as others
can you do your duty?!
i don't know how to describe my feeling
when i saw those people who should be
doing their duties were playing beside there
and others were so enjoy helping
those people to do their duties
i was totally speechless
thank you for those who helped me a lot
now i am feeling so down
for no reason
i know it's over
i just thinking why am I still sad?
maybe i am missing someone...
well i don't know
i just feel like wanting a hug from someone
i am now listening to a piano song
it is "tears" ...
i think it suits my mood now...

laziness

2010-07-09T04:50:00.000-07:00

my laziness is killing me
A girl told me
"actually you are damn clever,
but you are just too lazy."
laugh out loud
it's so true.

today is parent's day
i tried so hard to stop my mum
from asking question
when taking the report card
laugh out loud
teacher said this result is
quite bad for SPM

actually i never get a QUITE good result before lol

today
4 people asked me about my future
what am i going to do
and bla bla bla
i answered it seriously :
"i don't know"
LOL

gosh, don't ask me again please!
i hate answering this kind of question
it's so so so so LAME.

this is the day.

最后一次

2010-07-05T04:56:00.000-07:00

今天真的是最后一次了

最后一次，

我们才找到白马王子。

最后一次，

老师把指挥台留给了她，

奏出了我们最感动的冬。

最后一次，

从春风就压抑着的泪水，

终于留了出来。

从龙腾到冬，

都有着一段段的回忆。

在这么糟的音乐里，

我们却有着我们自己的故事，

我们的回忆，

我们的感动。

和你们合奏的日子会是我最怀念的。

今天的泪水和你们说的话，

我都不会忘记。

我们会把旋律带回家，

永远的怀念。

我爱你们，

谢谢你们。

this is hilarious

2010-07-03T04:29:00.000-07:00

when i say i want to leave
they push me inside
when i say i am so tired
they give more work to me
when i say i don't want
they say i can do that

thank you for that
but i am really tired

this happened when
everyone is tired
and nobody want to do that
and i am the lucky one
they choose me to be the one

this is so hilarious
omg
i can't accept it till now.

2010-07-01T04:27:00.000-07:00

i never know that this song
would be my last performance
this is meaningful and great
this was not like performing
we were playing and enjoying
i love this very much
i feel sad that others
couldn't join in together
i remember we got scolded so badly
before this
'cause we had only a few people can play this
teacher likes to compare us to others
and i never play this song for almost a year
and others didn't play it for almost 3 years i think
oh my god
we could still play it well
it showed that we were great
isn't it? LOL
this is because we never feel stress in this song
we like this song
we were really playing the song
with full of joys
no nervous no stress
♥♥

a forgetable competition

2010-06-30T06:03:00.000-07:00

i mostly forgot the competition on the Jun
i said i wished to get 3 golds
as my birthday present
my dream came true
but i am not happy actually
i was just pretending that
i was very happy
we played our worst ever
we shouldn't get the gold

but it's not for the juniors
they are great
i am so proud of them
i was so scared at that moment
'cause other team were not
performing that well
they were out of tune badly
and i was so scared that
this may happen to the junior team
i was praying...

it is so fantastic
when i heard their first note
i was like oh my god
my tears rolled down form my eyes
i know some of the seniors too
the first note touched us
it's so amazing
how great is that note!
they were so awesome!
maybe others can't
understand our feelings
but do they know?
before the competition
we didn't expect them to get the gold
just hoped that they could do their best
and now they made the miracle!
they proved that they can do it!
i was so glad at that moment
i could see the great moment of the juniors
before i leave this society

but i did leave some regrets on the stage
and now
just forget about it

I'm back

2010-06-29T00:20:00.000-07:00

i am back from china
and i am back to blogger too
i was lazy to update
even the twitter also
so it can be concluded that
i am so damn lazy

it will be a long long long passage
if i write the china trip here
so i am not going to do that
since i wrote that i am so that lazy
laugh out loud

so i will do a summary on that
i miss Malaysia seriously
when i was in china

i hate the food there
i hate the toilets there
i hate the people there
i hate the hostel there

i love the great scene
i love the cheap cheap things
i love the expo
i love the buildings
i love the stage
i love the performance
i love the songs
i love the conductor
i love the 4 star hotels
i love the airport

the loves are more than the hates
*claps*

we all having a great moment
during the week in china
i will never forget the days with amcco
the great moment when we all
playing a great music on the stage

i know i am going to leave this place
but my heart will always be here
i got the best memories here
i feel so lucky 'cause
i had choose the right one
if not i won't have all these now
i love it very much.

damn

2010-06-05T03:46:00.000-07:00

i am damn tiring of this
do not ask me to do anything
if you think that
i cannot do that
and don't look at me like that
please
although i know you don't like me

it will happen

2010-06-03T03:12:00.000-07:00

exam is totally over
and of course
keat yi and i was
going to parade again
guess what
i didn't buy anything
except for a SUCCESS BIO
so proud of myself
laugh out loud
i think i can't enjoy
this holiday that much
i need to study!!!
and of course practice too
3 days count down
for the competition
can we make a difference this time?
last year we did rock the stage
we totally show them
amcco is not fake
but how about this year?
when all the people
are opening their eyes and ears
to look and listen to us more clearer
finally they knew we are not that easy
well, i think we may disappointing them
i mean may
last year,
the seniors left a great memory
for the ending of the co life
and so us?
can we make a great memory for ourselves?

everytime after the performance
we could see that some of us
were so unhappy and unsatisfied
even just a simple performance in school hall
we couldn't do it well also
so it's the last chance for us
to flush those regrets away
especially for those who do not go to china
this will be the last memory for them in co
we should not spoil that
i am praying that
we can do well on the stage
and hoping that those who didn't play well
can make a big improve in these 3 days
we won't have that much of time
the big stage is waiting for us
can we hold the GOLDS?
or just can see it from far?
my birthday is on the day after the competition
the greatest birthday present
for me will be the 3 GOLDS
do we manage to do that?

good bye

2010-05-31T07:10:00.000-07:00

it is the time for me to say goodbye
and they misunderstood
it is goodbye
not to give up

i have been feeling so badly
for several months
i thought i can enjoy it
but actually i can't

you made me bloody
but never mind
it is ok
and it is going to over soon
oh i mean now

suddenly
that sentence flows
through my brain
that's from vivien lol

"i am not your dear, 'cause i am not ideal"

exam mood

2010-05-23T02:57:00.000-07:00

it is exam
but i am totally
not in the exam mood
laugh out loud

i just looking at the book
and then mentally
going out of this universe
laugh out loud

i hope i can fly to china now

i hope i can take out my gaohu
and play it for a whole night

i hope i can meet
the crazy juniors and all my partners now

i hope i can do what i want to do now
and meet who i want to meet.

think too much

2010-05-16T07:25:00.000-07:00

i know
i think too much
i always thinking too much
the things wouldn't happen like that
but i would make it happen
like what i want it to be
just in my dream

i am sorry
i blamed you
that breaking my dream
i know it won't come true
and i just wanna find a way
to make myself have a better feeling

goodbye
you won't be in my dream anymore

you are awesome

2010-05-14T05:44:00.000-07:00

i wanna say
dato lee chong wei
you are really great
no matter
how handsome and how good is he
you are always the best for me
i hate his arrogant
phew
i know
some other day
you will beat him down
i am looking forward to that moment
just keep going
i will always support you!!!

they are just kids

2010-05-12T00:06:00.000-07:00

they don't understand what we want
what we expect them to do
‘cause they are just little kids
we are big girls
we know what are we doing
we know what should we do
don't think we are stupid
we are also a kid before
so we know what
are they thinking about
but the kids will never know
what are we thinking now

so little kids
don't pretend that you
know what are we thinking
and don't try to do something
that you think we will like it
but actually we are not

don't think too much
and don't do that much
of useless things
it's just wasting your time
and spoiling your image only

little kids should learn
how to face the problem
but not throwing
their responsibility to another kid
they are so childish
and i know
we were also that childish before

don't say sorry
if you are not going to
say it truly
it's not apologize anymore
it's like acting
and we will feel annoying

please please please
don't acting in front of us
ok?
we can see anything
we are not stupid

sometimes
the truth won't be the winner
remember
kids will not beat the adults
we are always the right one
even though you
are not always the wrong one
always remember this
if you want to survive
on this island

pissed

2010-05-11T02:48:00.000-07:00

A asked me to do that
so i go tell B to do that
but then C said
oh i had decided all the things
and can't change anymore
go and tell B

i am not really angry with C
i just pissed off
because i was like a toy
and i treated B like a toy also
some more i didn't do
what I've promised to A well
i made someone happy and someone sad
and i don't know what feeling should i have
i actually hope that B can make that
but..............
the thing is not going to happen
like what we wish to

simplest

2010-05-10T05:43:00.000-07:00

finally got no more practice
but i am not happy
i don't want exam
everyone is studying now
i opened my book
after 2 hours
i was still on the same page
oh my god
what's wrong with me??

i went to the samtet
interaction program
omg
we were bad
especially myself
the mic was in front of me
it's too bad
jiajia said she gonna
sight reading on the stage
and that day the stupid spotlight
made her cant see the sheets
omg
and the 1st part don't know why
we all like....
suddenly all notes cramped
haix
it's over
it's just like a game
we played on the stage
i dont want to talk about it anymore
i just wanna say
their show is AWESOME
i like the dragon
and of course
their chinese orchestra
we got 4 gaohus with mic
they got 2 gaohus without mic
they are damn awesome than us!
and i am sad coz i cant go to their concert!
iish!

ended with an angry mood

omg

2010-05-01T01:39:00.000-07:00

comb your hair well please
although you are handsome enough
omg
you spoiled your image
LOL

i love mummy

2010-04-29T04:17:00.000-07:00

i love my mum
i think i can't live without her
thank you mummy

gentleman

2010-04-28T06:12:00.000-07:00

where are all those gentlemen??
i think the gentlemen is extinct
but at least still got him
just the only one
the imperfect but the best one...

hmph

2010-04-27T09:23:00.000-07:00

不要用那样的眼神望着我！

izit music?

2010-04-26T05:18:00.000-07:00

music is to enjoy
it shouldn't include with any tension and stress
if not, music is like a noise
what had we played on these few days
it's just noises
i am sorry
'cause these few days
i just teaching you all
how to play the noise
i am so sorry
i did so badly
but why she always want to
compare us with them?
why no one go to think about
why they can be so great
and we are so bad??

exam is coming

2010-04-25T00:12:00.000-07:00

exam is coming
i still have not touch my book yet
even my homework also
coz i am so addicted to the piano and computer
it's so bad if i continue my life like that
but i am not going to change it during this period
LOL

sighs

2010-04-24T07:23:00.000-07:00

i said i don't like blogger. but i keep blogging everyday. haix.
i wondering what are them thinking actually?
i do not want them know my feelings
but i hope to know what are they thinking actually.
it is kinda stupid, i mean myself.
LIM EE LIN, can you please wake up?
it won't happen exactly like what you think
don't dream again.
that is not true and just wasting your time only
i don't want my 17 to be like this
i want it to be sweet and memorable
not like my dark 16
i think it is the time i say goodbye to him and her.

LOL

2010-04-23T04:41:00.000-07:00

doing something lame in the camp. LOL

wey

2010-04-22T04:52:00.000-07:00

if you are viewing my blog
please go my chat box and write something kay?
so that i know who are those visitors lol
i get so boring now..

taichi camp 2010

2010-04-19T18:11:00.000-07:00

i am back from cameron. it's not really a "taichi" camp actually. so we really got a lot of fun there. i gained also a lot of from the camp. thanks for my roommates, they are so great. by the way, when walked inside our room, just like walking in a casino. all people were playing cards. LOL a nice scene. but i did not take down that scene because i was crazy playing the cards! haha. i am lazy to type out all my stories there. i really miss there so much. i miss jasmine, strawberry chocolates, poker cards, lame games, taichi, crazy juniors, sharing time, tears, smile, toilet....and many many...! i felt so cold there, but i felt the warmness in my heart. i remember i cried because i heard their stories. i hope they can remember what i said to them, appreciate their partners and their life in co, because i am going to leave that place, my second home. thank you jasmine one <3

i always love this ♥

omg

2010-04-16T07:24:00.000-07:00

omg
he do not have
even a pimple on his face!!!

key~

2010-04-16T06:15:00.000-07:00

i got back my key
guess where is it?
LOL
just inside the cupboard
how can i used a key to open the lock of the cupboard
then i left the key inside the cupboard
but i managed to close the cupboard
now i managed to open the door without the key
but i found the key was just inside the cupboard
LOL
so stupid

keykeykey

2010-04-15T05:46:00.000-07:00

i lost my key!
stupid me!
key ar key
where are you??
die lo..
if let teacher know
i will DIE
bad key
come out la~~!

:)

2010-04-14T08:03:00.000-07:00

I AM SO HAPPY NOW
THANK YOU
THE FEELING IS BACK
I LOVE THIS
THANK YOU~!
WE ARE BEST FRIEND FOREVER :)

let it be

2010-04-14T02:26:00.000-07:00

i do not want to care about it anymore
just think whatever you like to think
just do whatever you like to do
since you said you want to give up
no point for me
to keep holding on
now only i know
actually we are that kind of people
in your mind
that kind of people that don't care others feeling
ok you like to think that way
never mind
i just feel sad about it
i don't know what can i say
you keep reminding yourself about that matter
that happened 4 months ago
but you neglected the time
when we faced the challenge together
when we laughed and cried together
everything changed because of a sentence and a paper
my heart almost die
when i saw the word you had written there
each word made my heart pain one time
you said you didn't have any true friend
you got them just because of your post
then what am I?
so hilarious
you and her are also the important one in my life
i don't want to lose each of you
but 3 of us seem like so tired now
feel tired to persist everyone's persistent>
i don't everyone to be so unhappy with this
just because of your persistent
so let the time pass
maybe it's the only way for us

sorry

2010-04-12T04:17:00.000-07:00

i'm sorry...sometimes not everything can happen like what we wish...when we did stg wrong, we dont even know, if we knew, it wont happen now...who want this kind of things happen among the friends? when this happen, none of us will be happy...the one who has hurt someone, she wont be happy, the one hurt by them, will be even more sad...it derives from ppl to ppl...so no one will happy bout this...
if we did stg wrong, we need to know wat we did wrong...so that we can apologize and feel sorry or make the decision to be good to everyone...and we wont repeat it again...we are stupid..we hurt someone, but izit wat r we doing now can really help the hurt one...now we choose to ignore everything...it made the situation worst..ignoring does not help everything..i feel tired when bringing this kind of feeling, it's so heavy... u blame me i blame u, this shouldn't happen between friends...each of us oso will do stg wrongly, but the point is what r we going to do so that we can make it well...so...when all of us trying to make the situation better, we need to forgive everything so that we can know what had we done is wrong or right...angry can cover ppl's eyes and brain...so when i choose forgive, i know what i've did wrongly...i know a little things can make many ppl feel very sad or angry...now only can understand i should say sorry...a simple 'sorry' can make a difference? nonid to judge other ppl is wrong or rite, just nid to know wat i've done is wrong or rite... i just hope tat we can like b4, like a family...
i dont know wat i said or did had made the quarrel between both of u...but i apologize about that...i dont know maybe bcoz my one sentence made it burst..i just hope u 2 can be like before...

secondary school life really taught us a good lesson...

an untitled post

2010-04-10T06:33:00.000-07:00

so what do you mean now? who is the wrong one? for me, i don't know and i don't care! i just know we are friends! if you think we are wrong, ok. then we sit down together and discuss or what. if you want to scold you can even scold us. i don't mind, coz i keep thinking we are best friends, we can share everything. do you really consider me as your friend? just even that kind of ordinary friend? i don't expect you will treat me as what i consider that you are my best best best friend. if you really consider me as your friend, can you please don't show me that kind of face again? i hate it. i prefer you come in front of me and tell me :" you know? you cant do this way. do you ever care about my feelings?" it's better than you always show me that kind of face. i am stupid. i am so stupid you know. i cant get what are u thinking about. it's useless when we had done it then only you felt that we were wrong and you felt so angry and sad. so now everyone is unhappy.

you are right, we were wrong. so do you think a "sorry" can settle everything?

sweetness

2010-04-08T00:35:00.000-07:00

i feel lazy to write, the photos represent all.
who cares if it wasn’t perfect...we just want to enjoy

the precious one :) ♥

怡保圣母中学华乐团《冬●随想》演奏会

2010-04-07T01:59:00.000-07:00

the last one for us

2010-04-02T20:38:00.000-07:00

the cappricio of winter was ended. it's a bad but the memorable one for me. i was holding my tears, i do not want to cry on the stage yesterday. when i open my facebook just now, 9 of 10 of the status was written something like we play so bad, feel sorry..... i just want to say, it's already over. don't so care about it, the most important is the competition. if you think you didn't play well, then just put more effort for the next one. so gambateh to all of us, we can do it.

i am sorry

2010-03-29T05:59:00.000-07:00

i cried in the toilet for half an hour. i tried to release them out. ya i did. i am stupid. i feel sorry to you guys, i really don't know what am i doing now. people ask me why would this happen? i said don't know. i just know to say sorry. it's so helpless.
i feel warm when i had received a hug, a sms, and a few sentence in msn form you guys, it made me feel better. i feel sorry to you guys coz i made u all disappointing. but u all still can comfort me and help me. thanks a lot. i promise that this kind of thing wont be happen again as long as i am still in the group. so i am ok, dont worry.

"we noe our personality, strength, skills n many others
sometimes nt only the elders r always right
we gotta think positively.. if not we'll be the one suffering
this is only one small occurrence in our life
dun think that it's so big..
jz do ur best 2 achieve wat u hv 2..
bt nt 100% perfect
nothing is perfect de lah
no one is perfect also..
this is life.
we hv 2 get through of it"

thanks the one who saying this to me, u know who you are...♥
thank you so much...

what should i do?

2010-03-23T04:21:00.000-07:00

OMG
i don't know what should i do...
helpless...

amcco + kcco

2010-03-21T00:33:00.000-07:00

kcco members came to our school on last thursday. this is our first time for organizing this kind of interaction program lol. weird. but they are so nice! we really learned a lot from them. like the way they treat their juniors. lolx. shhhh it's a secret.

cute vitamins~ the presents i bought for them

cheese ^^ memories~

disappointed

2010-03-19T05:14:00.000-07:00

i feel disappointing on you guys. you all like to complain to me when you all don't want to bear the burden. but how about me? when i feel scare and tired, who can i complain to? teacher? if i complain to the teacher, i'm useless. but when u all complain to me, you are useless x 100 times than me! and the point is not only a people complained to me, there are some others even my best friend! why? am i really giving a lot of pressure to u all? i don't think so. that is your responsibility. you are also a member of it, how can you gave up so easily? you gave up on the excuse of pressure and you can't play well. i felt sad when i heard that. we gave a chance to you because we think u can do it. but now u made me absolutely and extremely disappointed. i don't like people showing me their tears when they did not play well. i think it's useless. you can cry, but i hope your tears is a sign of relief, not the sign of giving up. girls, please show me your confidence. i need u all. i don't want to be so lonely. i am not the best, i just pretend that i am the best. i feel tiring of pretending the best one. if u think you are stressful than me, ok fine. i let u go. i know not the everyone will agree with what i think, i just hope that you all can think it wisely not because of me, but the whole team.

wth

2010-03-17T02:51:00.002-07:00

WTH I AM SO TIRED! ISHH! YOU'RE SO ANNOYING! GO AWAY!

生命

2010-03-14T00:53:00.000-08:00

为什么还会听到这种消息？
我不想再有这种感觉...
这已经是第二次了
那种感觉好恐怖...

感慨生命为什么会如此的短暂？
一个好好的人
就这样永远离开了...

从你的声音
我知道你是坚强的
因为他不想你们难过...

虽然他已离开了
可是他依然是大家心目中的那个
好老师，好爸爸，好丈夫！

school magazine?

2010-03-12T06:34:00.000-08:00

WTH

is that my school magazine? it doesn't look like a school magazine at all! the title should be written as 5s7 class magazine!!! omg it's so unfair!

keat yi's birthday

2010-03-12T04:37:00.000-08:00

5 of us gathered at zhi qing's house to celebrate keat yi's birthday. sounds weird. lolx. but we really got a lot of fun. we baked a cake and it's....(weird) -.-" luckily there was an iron chef - ming ming. haha. then we also cooked the spaghetti LOL :D last but not least, happy birthday to keat keat...i appreciate our friendship ♥

cheese~ ♥

YELLOW ROAR!!!

2010-03-07T06:47:00.000-08:00

yellow house got championS!!! cheers~~ i really cant believe about that. this is my first time for joining a marching team and now my team is the champion!!! cant describe my feeling by words lol!

here is the link for the video:
Yellow House Girls SUPERB MARCH!!! :)the special one!Kuperman!!!

see? I'm yawning~ LOLx

i hate u

2010-03-05T04:05:00.000-08:00

I HATE U
I HATE U
I HATE U

U HURT ME BADLY.....

这不会是真的....

2010-02-28T04:22:00.000-08:00

我刚接到绮媚的电话，她用哽咽的声音跟我说：“苑绮今天下午在kl去世了....” 我的天啊！这简直就是晴天霹雳！当时的我简直就呆住了....听见绮媚的哭泣，我也不懂我要说什么....结果我们都保持沉默了好久好久....直到盖了电话之后，我的眼泪才开始留出来了。虽然我和苑绮算不上是非常要好的朋友，可是毕竟我们已认识超过9年了....这几年里，我所认识的她是一个很亲切和可爱的人。为什么上天就是这么的不公平？就这样夺走了一个17岁女孩的生命，只留下为她哭泣的家人和朋友....
今天是元宵节，报纸上说今天的月亮是历年来最圆的，而不能人月两团圆莫过于这个世界上最悲哀的事...我现在所希望的是她能够安息，而她的家人和朋友也可以从悲伤中平复过来。让我们祈祷，她能在另外个世界里活得开开心心，也依然挂着她那可爱的笑容...

magic bulb clock

2010-02-27T03:24:00.001-08:00

went shopping with family yesterday. i saw this thing in living cabin. i ♥ this soooooo much. actually the real one is not like this, i searched this picture from the web. because when i tried to captured it with my handphone, the sales girl was staring at me :@ the one that i saw is yellow colour, and it really looks like a light bulb. but i think the one inside the picture is COOL and it will look cuter if it's yellow.
I WANT IT AS MY BIRTHDAY PRESENT!!!!
i ♥bulb :)

the 61th post

2010-02-20T22:59:00.000-08:00

the holidays end. seriously i didn't really enjoy the cny. the school will reopen tomorrow. and now i wanna say good bye to my pink fingernails :'(

Shades of My Monotonous Life

原来

这样多好

懂我的人就会懂

笨蛋

没心没肺的我

Dying

心 ∙ 跳

剩下的记忆

HOOHOOO

STUPIDITY

分享

Easy come easy go

weird

speechless

玻璃下的忧郁

Aimless

pass-byer

Goodbyes

Music

cherish

The colourful blank year

不完美的完美 ♥

手牵手 ♥

Joe Hisaishi / Princess Mononoke Symphonic Suite

Graduation Night

我还记得

new post

exam

pissed off

i love 5S8 lol

nice melody

OH

especially for someone

Is the two words really that important for you?

you can only see the radiance of it.

it is difficult to carry these two words.

you will never know how stressful and

how tired we are after carrying it.

it is not as beautiful as what you think.

bored

feelings?

regretless

There You'll Be

放手

i don't care

a new start

what a day

laziness

最后一次

今天真的是最后一次了

最后一次，

我们才找到白马王子。

最后一次，

老师把指挥台留给了她 ，

奏出了我们最感动的冬。

最后一次，

从春风就压抑着的泪水，

终于留了出来。

从龙腾到冬，

都有着一段段的回忆。

在这么糟的音乐里，

我们却有着我们自己的故事，

我们的回忆，

我们的感动。

和你们合奏的日子会是我最怀念的。

今天的泪水和你们说的话，

我都不会忘记。

我们会把旋律带回家，

永远的怀念。

我爱你们，

谢谢你们。

this is hilarious

a forgetable competition

I'm back

damn

it will happen

good bye

exam mood

think too much

老师把指挥台留给了她，

怡保圣母中学华乐团《冬●随想》演奏会